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I believe the silence says enough on how much I have got to...

rainysundayafternoon — Wed, 27 Jun 2012 22:50:06 +0200

I believe the silence says enough on how much I have got to say. Chasing memories, faces and places that no longer seem to make a difference and no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to understand the essence of anything anymore.

I’ve been running straight ahead and now my legs are numb and I’m out of breath but I can’t find the brakes and again I just don’t know why. Never once worried about the lefts or rights appearing aside but now the road seems never ending and I’m questioning the direction I’m heading but there’s no turning back.

So many questions yet I ran out of answers a long time ago and there’s no need to make anything up because I don’t fall for that crap, never have and never will. Maybe one day I’ll grow so numb and broken and tired and give up but that moment has never seem close nor does it now, not even with my heart racing, pumping out of my chest.

I’m not sure if I’m too worried of growing old so fast or growing old so fast because I worry too much. I hope time will tell.

Nothing makes sense.

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 15 May 2012 22:19:21 +0200

Nothing makes sense.

Sometimes the biggest strengths come from letting go. From...

rainysundayafternoon — Mon, 14 May 2012 22:05:03 +0200

Sometimes the biggest strengths come from letting go. From realizing what you have, from assuring yourself it will be just fine.

And even when it seems impossibly unachievable, if you don’t have faith the route won’t all of a sudden change and whatever will not take you somewhere else. So if you ever feel lost and life takes you places you didn’t want to go, you may as well try and enjoy the ride if you can’t get off anyway.

I’m grateful to whoever is patient enough to listen.

No sleeping in this weekend since today the alarm clock rang at...

rainysundayafternoon — Sun, 13 May 2012 22:08:11 +0200

No sleeping in this weekend since today the alarm clock rang at 7 am as well. We decided to surprise Daans mom by showing up on mothersday, even though she had to work in the afternoon. At 8:30 we were well on our way to the other side of The Netherlands. She loved it and our present. Yay :)

We agreed to get lunch in Scheveningen, so after walking around for a bit we went to pizza hut, where we had the entire terrace for ourselves. No better lunch than sharing a pizza in the sun. On the way back home we decided to stop at the new Starbucks next to the highway and got a Frappuccino. We parked the car and sat in the trunk for I have no idea how long. Great roadtrip.

Back home we went to my momma and she loved her present too. In return my dad cooked dinner for us and we got a new hammock for our piggies and back home I went for a killing run. I doubt I’ll have time to go to the gym this week so the runs will have to do for now.

After an overall pretty great weekend, I’m preparing for another crazy busy week. Summer holidays, please be here soon.

12052012 You know the saying about how sunshine comes after...

rainysundayafternoon — Sun, 13 May 2012 21:58:22 +0200

12052012

You know the saying about how sunshine comes after rain? I’ve noticed it also works the other way around. I had to be at school before 10 so at 7 am I cried when my alarm clock rang. I crawled over to school and only survived by receiving another 8 and half an hour full of compliments for my marketing research for an assignment. As long as I can pass all my courses hangover I’ll be ok.

Other than that the only thing I liked was going for dinner at my grandparents place. We barely ever eat with them while they cook the most amazing food. Fish, veggies, soup. Onmonomnom. And my grandpas son bought a Harley. The sound that thing makes. Amazing. It sounds like a monster.

One day I’ll own one and travel across the world.

11052012 What a day. Or should I say what an evening? In the...

rainysundayafternoon — Sun, 13 May 2012 21:50:52 +0200

11052012

What a day. Or should I say what an evening? In the morning we found out our kitchen mirror had fallen from the wall during the night. My guess is that some creepy ghost scared the shit out of it.

In the afternoon I took the train to the office because we had drinks planned and for the first time in a while I could actually join! So after driving there in Kathrins car with Mandy on my lap, we found out the venue was pretty damn great. Cool place with wooden furniture. As the drinks were only free for the first two hours, everyone started drinking like mad men. It probably explains why I don’t remember a whole lot of the rest.

Here a short summary of keywords I remember: stories of driving intoxicated with queen Beatrix after which she blowed a cop, drinks, food, more drinks, survival route by climbing over containers in front of peoples houses, feeling extremely happy and comfortable in the most amazing place ever and more drinks.

I think you could say this was the best day in a good while. More of these please!

We ended up getting a little stormy weather after all. I tried...

rainysundayafternoon — Thu, 10 May 2012 22:50:38 +0200

We ended up getting a little stormy weather after all. I tried to capture the lightning but it only appeared whenever I turned my head. Troll lightning.

I’m tired. I haven’t slept well in days. For some reason sleep just won’t get to me lately. I lay there waiting for it and nothing really happens. hope tonight will be better.

Don’t underestimate the fun in tangerines. Funny, tiny...

rainysundayafternoon — Wed, 09 May 2012 22:11:51 +0200

Don’t underestimate the fun in tangerines. Funny, tiny orange balls of joy. Today it appeared I had one from the US of A. I just had to take the sticker off and put it on myself so I could sing bornnnn in the ussaaa. I don’t even like the song but it was nice to have a theme day.

I went to the gym not too excited as I had to go alone. I tried to do some sit ups but couldn’t as everything still hurt from the kettlebell workout I did two days ago. Damn kettlebells. So instead I did almost an hour of cardio and it feels great doing it smoke free. I guess fitness is really becoming more important to me than smoking. I hope I’ll never lose the motivation I feel right now. Let’s do this!

Hospitals. I have a lot of respect for the people who manage to...

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 08 May 2012 21:40:48 +0200

Hospitals. I have a lot of respect for the people who manage to work in them. Everything in hospitals feels sad and angry. Take for example the dental lamp. Even that looks evil.

I went for a checkup on my infection. It wasn’t completely pain free but at least no more cutting! They took some pictures and poked in my scar. It hurt quite a bit the rest of the day but at least it looked ok and I don’t have to come back until next year. Yay!

07052012 Deadlines, exercise and more deadlines. Killed it all...

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 08 May 2012 21:35:44 +0200

07052012
Deadlines, exercise and more deadlines. Killed it all though: winning!

My grandparents called earlier this weekend that they had a...

rainysundayafternoon — Sun, 06 May 2012 22:44:09 +0200

My grandparents called earlier this weekend that they had a spare bike left. If Daan would like to have it. Daan and I both have shitty bikes that break down every once in a while. Ok maybe mine isn’t so bad because I’ve had it for over seven years. But let’s just say it currently isn’t a joy to ride on. I feel a thats what she said joke coming up.

Anyway so we went to pick up this bike and it is amazing! It’s like new and it has these springs in the saddle that go up and down when you cycle over bumps. Cool feature. Anddd *drumroll* I cleaned my car. I cleaned my bloody car. I didn’t think this day would come but it is all nice and tidy. The chocolate milk that was stuck to the cup holder is now decaying some place else. Achievement of the day!

05052012 Bevreidingsdag. The day holland celebrates the end of...

rainysundayafternoon — Sun, 06 May 2012 22:35:58 +0200

05052012

Bevreidingsdag. The day holland celebrates the end of world war 2. World war 2 intrigues me, it really does. The gym has a teli and I got so caught up in one of the tv programs on the concentration camps that I forgot I was on the treadmill and totally nailed the workout.

But seriously though, I once went to Theresienstadt in Prague and it was one of the most interesting and strange places I’ve ever been to. I want to go to at least auschwitz or dachau somewhere this year.

Something I completely forgot to put in here is that we finally booked our summer holidays. We’re going to Lac du Mer in France, the end of July. I honestly can’t wait! I’ve never been to France and I can’t wait to eat all the awesome france food, see everyone walking around with mustaches and baguettes. This is going to be ace.

Today I went to the hairdresser to get balayage done. I almost...

rainysundayafternoon — Fri, 04 May 2012 23:43:46 +0200

Today I went to the hairdresser to get balayage done. I almost missed the appointment by sleeping in. So great to sleep properly for the first time in a while. Had an odd dream about a bar in center parcs where I talked to an intern and made friends with a girl because we both said “score” at the same time after she got points from not being nice but trying. I wonder where my brain gets these strange dreams from.

When I arrived at the hairdresser I showed her the picture of how I wanted it done. She asked me to bring a picture after the not knowing what balayage is incident. She told me the best way to do it was by first dyeing my hair red. hell I don’t know why that would be a good idea but if she says so. I missed having a soul that brief half an hour.

After completing washing, drying and straightening my hair, she started putting the highlights in. This took ages. Then while finally washing it, she thought it was too red still so put in a special matte bleach that had to stay in for quite a while as well. End conclusion? I spent five hours to end up with the same hair colour as when I got in. Just, blonde. What a waste of time.

But perhaps i shouldn’t complain too much. It looks a lot better than it did before and I can come back to get it fixed for free. So next week, get ready for balayage take two.

Curly hair and lipstick love.

rainysundayafternoon — Thu, 03 May 2012 22:42:25 +0200

Curly hair and lipstick love.

I’ve finally reached my first goal weight and I promised...

rainysundayafternoon — Wed, 02 May 2012 22:26:21 +0200

I’ve finally reached my first goal weight and I promised myself to treat myself every time I reach a goal weight. First milestone? The hairdresser! I haven’t been to the hairdresser in at least a year so I am actually excited. I decided to get balayage done so I called to ask whether they did that at my hair salon.

As soon as I finished saying balayage an awkward silence fell. “Ehhh, sorry what did you just say? Could you repeat that for me please?” I had to explain what the hell “a balayage” was. And spell it. Up to three times. After googling it together she decided they were going to give it a try. This is going to be interesting for sure. I’ll let you know on Friday whether I look like a douche.

Other than that today was work, school and meetings. Long, long meetings. I did just treat myself to a Happy meal though. I love losing weight but god I really loved this happy meal. I’ve convinced myself once a month won’t kill me. Can’t wait till it’s May ;)

And we have finally arrived to today. As you can see I’ve...

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 01 May 2012 22:07:22 +0200

And we have finally arrived to today. As you can see I’ve had quite some difficulties keeping up my blog. I’ve just been so occupied with millions of things at the same time, that I completely forget to blog.

So apart from working, meeting and working out, today was about blogging. My memory is terrible. Even trying to remember the past few days was barely impossible. Ok, this could have something to do with alcohol, but still. It reminds me of why I decided to start this blog in the first place.

It is going to be so amazing when I’m crazy old, barely remembering what I had for breakfast this very morning, to read this all. I’ll have something to hold onto. And even though times are crazy busy and I can barely keep my head up, life is fantastic. I can’t wait to see what tomorrow holds. Let’s just agree It’ll at least consist of me updating my blog because all of this recapping sucks big time.

30042012 Queensday! The day Holland goes mental, everythings...

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 01 May 2012 22:00:57 +0200

30042012

Queensday! The day Holland goes mental, everythings orange and the queen and her family visit a town somewhere in the country. This year? Veenendaal. Yay! (feel the sarcasm). Let’s just say I am not the biggest royal fan.

In fact, I think it’s a proper waste of money. Plus it’s so out dated to still have certain privileges just because of the blood running through your veins. But as Daan and I woke up early, we decided to head down town and check out the progress. Bad idea. The entire city center was divided in areas. By the god damn army. So after a while we gave up, headed home, opened up a beer and watched the whole happening on the teli.

As soon as the queen left and the streets were accessible again we headed downtown and met up with Mandy to find her some cotton candy and get the last things for our spontaneous barbecue. I love friends, barbecues, queensday and sunny weather. More of these please!

29042012 Crazy cleaning day. As during the week finding time to...

rainysundayafternoon — Tue, 01 May 2012 21:55:00 +0200

29042012

Crazy cleaning day. As during the week finding time to clean is near the impossible these days, our Sunday was all about tidying the house. Did two weeks worth of laundry as we were all out of clothes, cleaned every imaginable spot in the house and rearranged my closet. Boring? a little bit. Needed? Yes!

And seeing we had an awesome evening a head, we dealt with it. For Dinner we went to Hilde, who threw a little party in the evening. It was pretty nice. Awesome people, jagermeister cleavage and feeling sick. I almost fell asleep on the back of our bike when Daan brought me home.

Lets just say this day ended with an “I’m never drinking again” feeling. But isn’t that how queensnight is supposed to end? I think so!

My first Glossybox got in today! For those of you who...

rainysundayafternoon — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 01:54:28 +0200

My first Glossybox got in today! For those of you who don’t know the concept: you sign up for 10 euros a month and then receive a box with 5 new cosmetic and beauty products, either in mini or full size. I love the concept, I think it works well for both consumers and companies.

The April box comprises of 3 tiny robert paguet perfumes, H2O nail & hand cream, a small version of the Yves Saint Laurent Shocking mascara, Indola bi-phase conditioner and a full sized essie nailpolish. I have to be honest I didn’t know any of the products apart from the mascara. I love every product, apart from the perfumes. Which were just a little too heavy for me. The greatest in my opinion is the nail polish. I hate and suck at applying nail polish and I could actually work with this one! Awesome.

I’m pretty happy with my Glossybox subscription and I can’t wait for the next one. Other than that I went to the gym and then compensated by eating a pizza. It was free though, so totally justified. Most importantly I finished the biggest part of this school assignment. Yay for some me time :)

The weather was shit, my mood was shit and everything was just...

rainysundayafternoon — Thu, 26 Apr 2012 23:12:39 +0200

The weather was shit, my mood was shit and everything was just nothing but shit. Sometimes I have weeks like these where I doubt everything I do in life. Did I make the right decision quitting my course? Am I really capable of keeping this work-school-sleep routine for two more years? Will I be able to keep up?

Today the stress felt like a heavy blanket wrapped around me. I tend to dig all the way into work and just today I got to the point where I really almost couldn’t take it anymore. Thank god for the amazing people around me. I’ve decided to ask for help and told my classmates. They helped me with my research and now I don’t feel so stuck.

In fact, I feel a lot better. I need to remember to take the time to do something for myself every once and a while. If I do that, I should be able to stay sane for the time being.